6.

So, root canal tomorrow.

I genuinely don't think I've been this scared for a really really long time. I'm absolutely bricking it. I've been trying to read up about it a little more, but the internet is not helpful and is just stressing me out more. God, I so wish I'd done something about this tooth when it actually fell apart initially (much like my life) :(

It kind of helps that new dentist is nice, but at the same time she's still the horrible person fiddling about in my mouth. To be honest, my main problem with the dentist isn't the pain, or how uncomfortable it is keeping your mouth open for an unnaturally long period of time. It is however two main things, the smell as you walk in, that really nasty sterile, bleh dentisty smell. But even more so, is the noise. Oh jeez, it literally makes me feel like pulling my fingernails off. THAT is what makes me freak out, that's what made me cry the last time (embarassment!).

My brain can't comprehend why someone would want to become a dentist. It's the worst thing in the world. I can't even imagine it. Urgh. I feel sick just thinking about it.

ROOT CANAL. What does that even mean! My roots are not Venice. I don't need them to be canalled. I don't want a canal, in my face.

WHAT IF SHE DRILLS INTO MY FACE. O_O


I can totally do this.
I can. I can. I can. I will. Right. Good.

<3