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So, the rest of the root canal was on tuesday - (well I still have to go back for my crown). And first of all, ohMYgod, the most excruiatingly horrible experience. So damn painful and really didn't help when dentist woman wants to tell me "it's the last one it's the last one"...SIX times. So basically, not the last one, and you just want to lie because you're clearly evil. Sigh.

Anyhoo, I wake up this morning, with my mouth on absolute fire, the damn tooth trying to kill me apparently. Dentist decides not to call me back for like what, 3 hours? When I finally get to speak to her she tells me oh, did I not prescribe you antibiotics? WHAT THE HELL WOMAN. HOW CAN YOU FORGET TO GIVE ME MA DRUGS! Foolish lady. Lets hope it fixes it, there's only so long I can sit with my face in my hands and cry.


On a good note, everything else seems to be going well. Got a few responses from job applications, so yep. Not too shabby. Apart from blinding pain. :)

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7.

Just when you think things may be improving, even if it's ever so slightly, life comes along and punches you in the face. Why does this always happen? I'm pretty sure it's not just me, although it often feels that way. Everything will be going well, improving steadily, and then bang. Something kicks off, and you're right back to square one. Forced to climb that tedious little ladder again to try and reach happiness. It fricking sucks. Like, it really, REALLY sucks. I genuinely don't understand what the hell is going on in my life at the moment. My life is like British weather, you just don't know what to expect. Okay, for some people that might mean something good, excitement and change and whatever. For me? It just means "Oh! You're kind of happy at the moment? BAM. FUCK YOU, here's a bloody hurricane to ruin your life."

ARGH!

Okay, time to sit and think how to fix all of this. Today really has just been a bad day. Burnt my face while cooking too. Yes, my face. Hot oil is not pleasant.

Fail wednesday.

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So, root canal tomorrow.

I genuinely don't think I've been this scared for a really really long time. I'm absolutely bricking it. I've been trying to read up about it a little more, but the internet is not helpful and is just stressing me out more. God, I so wish I'd done something about this tooth when it actually fell apart initially (much like my life) :(

It kind of helps that new dentist is nice, but at the same time she's still the horrible person fiddling about in my mouth. To be honest, my main problem with the dentist isn't the pain, or how uncomfortable it is keeping your mouth open for an unnaturally long period of time. It is however two main things, the smell as you walk in, that really nasty sterile, bleh dentisty smell. But even more so, is the noise. Oh jeez, it literally makes me feel like pulling my fingernails off. THAT is what makes me freak out, that's what made me cry the last time (embarassment!).

My brain can't comprehend why someone would want to become a dentist. It's the worst thing in the world. I can't even imagine it. Urgh. I feel sick just thinking about it.

ROOT CANAL. What does that even mean! My roots are not Venice. I don't need them to be canalled. I don't want a canal, in my face.

WHAT IF SHE DRILLS INTO MY FACE. O_O


I can totally do this.
I can. I can. I can. I will. Right. Good.

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ROOT CANAL IS ON WEDNESDAY.

MUCHOS PANIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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5.

Hai :) Maybe I should try and blog every day...that might get a bit too much. Meh. Things are a little less crappy today, I bought a new book so pretty excited about that :) The Memory Keeper's Daughter, the back bit (blurb?) looked pretty interesting so I hope it's goooooood. Haven't had a good book to read in ages! And I kind of had shopping fail yesterday, was meant to return something but ended up spending more than what I had to return...oopsie poops. So yeah, :)

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